Wednesday, June 17, 2015
"There's a reason I said I'd be happy alone. It wasn't cuz I thought I'd be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It's easier to be alone, because what if you learn that you need love and then you don't have it? What if you like it? And depend on it? What if you shape your life around it, and then it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It's like dying. The only difference is, death ends. This, it could go on forever." ~ Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy
Monday, June 15, 2015
An open letter...
A Very Open Letter:
I like puzzles because I don't have to think about them. Orange reminds me of sunset unless someone is wearing it. Then it reminds me of Halloween and I hate it. I read a lot because people in books are more real than most actual people. I tend to block people out because I don't like to risk their leaving. I really hate Ramen, but I'm really awesome at making it taste better because I had to eat it for so long. I struggle to keep up with clean towels, especially during the summer time, because I go to the ~~pool~~ way too much. I buy a new bathing suit top almost every year just because I don't like when their colors fade. I keep bubbles in the house, because bubbles make everything just a little bit better. I like to debate things I disagree with because I feel like they allow me to see from other's shoes. As much as I like to debate, I'm an obsessive pacifist, because I hate to hear people fight and yell. Of all the birds, I prefer hummingbirds and sparrows because they just seem more free than the rest. I stuff pillowcases with old sheet sets in part for the convenience when guests are over and in part because I really just don't feel like buying pillows to put in them. Of all the fruits, melons are the best because they're so sweet and they make a huge mess so I love it. I'm too messy right now to keep my life organized, but everything to do with school or work is tediously in order. I'm too stubborn to look up the instructions to a Rubix Cube, so I've never finished more than two sides. I really want children one day but I'm terrified that I'm too cold-hearted and won't be a good mother. For now, I really want to travel and have fun, and you're right. I really don't want to do it alone. But I don't want to settle down and miss my chance if that person decides that their career or their goals for family means they don't want to go. I will chat with pretty much anyone just for the sake of meeting someone new. I only like shampoo that smells like fruit because the waterfall ones smell like dudes and the flower ones smell like a garden full of bumblebees. I've decided to go the route of mathematics and education, but I've secretly always loved the idea of going in to medicine; but I've never had a real biology class so I'm too scared to take that route. If I had my choice, I would just volunteer every day all day because I honestly just love helping people. I collect magnets because I figure that's the only object I can collect that won't be ruined in ten years. I love gardens but I hate gardening. How about you?
I like puzzles because I don't have to think about them. Orange reminds me of sunset unless someone is wearing it. Then it reminds me of Halloween and I hate it. I read a lot because people in books are more real than most actual people. I tend to block people out because I don't like to risk their leaving. I really hate Ramen, but I'm really awesome at making it taste better because I had to eat it for so long. I struggle to keep up with clean towels, especially during the summer time, because I go to the ~~pool~~ way too much. I buy a new bathing suit top almost every year just because I don't like when their colors fade. I keep bubbles in the house, because bubbles make everything just a little bit better. I like to debate things I disagree with because I feel like they allow me to see from other's shoes. As much as I like to debate, I'm an obsessive pacifist, because I hate to hear people fight and yell. Of all the birds, I prefer hummingbirds and sparrows because they just seem more free than the rest. I stuff pillowcases with old sheet sets in part for the convenience when guests are over and in part because I really just don't feel like buying pillows to put in them. Of all the fruits, melons are the best because they're so sweet and they make a huge mess so I love it. I'm too messy right now to keep my life organized, but everything to do with school or work is tediously in order. I'm too stubborn to look up the instructions to a Rubix Cube, so I've never finished more than two sides. I really want children one day but I'm terrified that I'm too cold-hearted and won't be a good mother. For now, I really want to travel and have fun, and you're right. I really don't want to do it alone. But I don't want to settle down and miss my chance if that person decides that their career or their goals for family means they don't want to go. I will chat with pretty much anyone just for the sake of meeting someone new. I only like shampoo that smells like fruit because the waterfall ones smell like dudes and the flower ones smell like a garden full of bumblebees. I've decided to go the route of mathematics and education, but I've secretly always loved the idea of going in to medicine; but I've never had a real biology class so I'm too scared to take that route. If I had my choice, I would just volunteer every day all day because I honestly just love helping people. I collect magnets because I figure that's the only object I can collect that won't be ruined in ten years. I love gardens but I hate gardening. How about you?
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